im such a fucking mess, is this over yet?
then I'll close my eyes and make a wish.
fml fml fml!
& guess what?
you're fucking cute <3
I feel like I'm sleeping, that's because of two things, I'm tired beyond believe,
two my hearts never been like this.
thursday things got weird, a confussion lead to a big disaster,I know I did what I had to do,
what I could do.No, it wasn't your fault, but it wasn't mine either.Into the woods has been
going in & out of my head since I saw the show thursday night.One of the best shows I've
gone to in a long time.In a way it wasn't the best thing to do, but I had no choice and two
my hands are clean.
Friday, was when I learned a big thing, if not the biggest, thing that really changed how I
look at somethings.Nothing close to it happend before, nothing that made me shake and
want to start crying untill I couldn't breathe and gasp for air.Nothing where I was lost,
confussed and scared out of my fucking mind.It hit me, and it made it's point, many say it
happend because I had other things in the back of my mind,other say, it was fucked.
I came back the place where moods move faster than my heartbeat when you say my name.
I ended up watching the forbided kingdom, it had it's funny parts, let's just say the ones I
actually got to see.
I'm never forgetting that, that night, the way you looked at me, that way you held me and
said the things that made me smile and gave me a reason to make sure I'm still alive. The
only thing I hated was time,because all I wanted was to be in your arms, and get you sick.
I can't describe it, it's really one of those things you have experience yourself, no matter
how much anybody tries, you can't word it, if you can, then I think you're just feeling something
else.That night, when I went to sleep, and woke up the next day, I swear I thought it was a dream.
your touch was just....
saturday,waking up from what I though was a figure of my imagination, I was pretty rushed,
I didn't get all the sleep I needed, maybe coming home at 12:30am, isn't the best idea, but
hey it was worth it.I thought I wasn't going to loss my "six flags virginity" when I looked out my
window, of course arianna calls me at 6:00am saying we're still on for later.I attemp to catch
some rest untill 8:00am, didn't work untill 7:30.Yes, because you only need a halfhour to be
wide awake for the day,not.I said by to my dad and we were off to sixflags.It was cold when we
got there, I borrowed arianna's hoodie, that I put over mine.The scream, should have been called
"you're going to make a really funny face".
this is just after the 15 we got in. e o
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:bosson
So I can finally breathe.At the moment I hate school with passion.
tomorow I'm taking a break though,my french class is actually doing
something good, we're watching a movie and stuffing our faces.
that night though,I don't think I've ever felt that way. The way my heart
beated and my breathe taken way.I was in a whole new world,with you
everything's at peace and everything is just right.All my flaws and wrongs
are vanished, everything thing you say or do makes me love you more
than I did yesterday, but not as much as I will tomorrow
"It's been 4 months, yet I feels like 4 weeks
It's been great with you and youre pikachu cheeks
There's no doubt in my mind that we'll be together forever
We're Kiddo so fuck them geeks
Our love is pure forever and ever
The moment I kissed you, you had me hooked
On this drug that I never thought to look
The drug is called love, it's got me so high
can't believe this time last year I couldn't say hi
I'm your kiddo, your dork
You won't believe how badly I fallen for you
like our hearts in a wine bottle with a tight cork
yet still higher than the cow over the moon that says moo
All I can say is shift I LOVE YOU."
-J.E.G.L
he keeps me breathing,
my girls keep me smiling.
- Mood:
because of you - Music:GoodnightNurse
iloveyou.
- Mood:
excited - Music:Aventura
There's only one small thing bothering me, I can't fix it though.
It's just a matter of time.Other than that, I feel butterflies again.
It's silly and childish, I know, but that's what makes it so amazing.
Sure there's something that makes me flip my smile but I figured
out I can't help it, it's just something that's always going to be there,
no matter what I say, or what I do, I can't change it.I'm just going to
have to accept it.Keep my thoughts in and make it so that they stay
in the right place, for all the wrong times.
It's that time again,I just hope I don't relive old memories for too long.
I know I'm going to, I just hope I don't for too long of a time.
Other than that, my heart is in all the right places.
- Location:the right place
- Music:Sexual Earthquake In Kobe
that has no fucking point, that I don't even know how it started, mkay? I'm done.
I just wish I had a better way or knowing of how to, better yet a guide.Why doesn't
anyone ever teach us these type of things?I'm guessing we're better off learning
by ourselfs, in a way we would remember better and have a clear-er understanding of it.
It really just kills me a little bit on the inside that I can't, I want to but can't.
How I can't take a breathe with out thinking about how you took it away,
It's so crazy and insaine, also in a way not good for me or you, something
like this can get to point where were sick.I dread that day to come, I won't
be suprised if you are diagnosed first.
Nothing can ever fit in one place, not everything can make me smile at once.
There's always something that make me flip over and inside out, just looking
and wondering how? where? and why?I'm getting sick of hearing myself being
so pathetic.
I really though that the day you stole it, you would make it all better and that never again
I would have to hear my self asking ten million questions, was it me? or is this just you.
- Location:nowhere good
- Mood:
I'm done. - Music:.Nine In The Afternoon.
We're all human, we all make mistakes.Sometimes we fall thinking
there is going to be someone there to take our hand and help
you out when you are at your worse, funny how tables can turn.
Who's to say we should help ourselfs?And not help other when they
are in need?Is it because we don't want to see our own problems?
Truth hurts,that's so fucking overrated. I'm ready to move on
and and think of you as something that just made me stronger and
made me realize that in order to believe in others, I have to believe in myself first.
Question,why do we wish on a falling star?When something falls,
doesn't that mean it fails? Does it not break?Why put our dreams and hopes
on something like that?Will our wishes do the same? fall? fail? break?
I hate spending time thinking about the future,enjoy your present
be yourelf and smile because I know I have more reasons to count with my fingers.
Do anything but regret your past.Live,Life,Love,
I have it all.
- Mood:
Tomorow,more than today. - Music:Emarosa
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